H.U.R.T.

so?!are they hurt? meaning HURT as in a feeling of pain?

damn. at least for once they have felt what i had felt.

cried?! didn't they even think that i also cried? i haven't stop crying every night.

it's only tonight. coz I've made a promise to myself. let go and grow up.

maybe they might say that i am unfair; quite childish well, i will never be this unfair if they haven't been unfair to me.

every time i saw those SHITS in my room, i just keep on crying, and the saddest thing? i dunno why.

i really feel pity to myself. especially when someone told me "i feel pity for you, they left you hanging yet you still wait for them to come back, don't worry i'll be here for you, we could eat together if you want to." tears just rush down to my face, am i that lonely? am i that affected while some can't even show their longing?

the hell. where did the words FOREVER went? where are the NO GOODBYES? NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS?

am i just thinking in a wrong way? or is it really the reality that WITHOUT ME, IT WOULD BE FINE, MUCH BETTER PERHAPS.

i know to myself that i have been this patient. i have been so understanding. but with this little mess? no i can't take it. i have sent her a hug yet she just had loosen my hands, i had given her a smile and yet she just rolled her eyes on me.

before i really hope that things would just go back from the way it is. but now, i want to hope no more.

tears are enough. . . . and i don't wanna cry anymore.

now, if you would just judge me then go head, the hell i care. i have been used to see as a bad girl. bad girl yesterday and bad girl tomorrow. it won't make any difference.